I must learn to sleep earlier. chamomile tea helps you sleep.
Deactivated facebook & signed off of gchat for a while.
Someone help me utilize my daytime…
unchanging but new.
In heed on January 18, 2010 at 8:16 pm
The first thing I see in the morning is the surface of my alarm clock and the word “snooze”. The second thing I see is the mobile of pretty paper birds flying above me. They remind me of a saying my dad would unashamedly repeat to me in his broken engrish: “Jah-net! de ully bud get de woom!” 
“But this I call to mind, and therefore I have hope: The steadfast love of the Lord never ceases; his mercies never come to an end; they are new every morning; great is YOUR faithfulness. – Lamentations 3:21-23
Something that never ceases and never comes to an end is also completely new every morning. What a paradoxical yet utterly perfect concept.
truly, great is YOUR faithfulness.
preparatory thoughts. urbana 2009.
In Uncategorized on December 27, 2009 at 4:14 pm
“We love because He first loved us” – 1 John 4:19
I was sitting here at gate F3, trying to write this entry as fast as possible because I only had 28% of battery life left on my laptop. Usually I’m pretty quick at busting out a full entry because I already know what thoughts I want to “publish” (as well as what thoughts I don’t want to publish 
). But this time, I was struggling because I didn’t know what I was feeling exactly. Was I excited? Was I apprehensive? Was I dreading to go? As awful as that sounded, even 30 minutes before my plane departed, I couldn’t figure it out.
Then a woman sat next to me and was creeping on my computer screen, haha. Then she asked, “Are you attending Urbana? Me too.” And then another girl at the other end of the row of seats exclaimed, “Urbana? Me too!” and then another in the row ahead of us, “I’m going to Urbana too.”
After talking with them for a little bit, I looked back to my blank WordPress screen and realized that’s exactly how I felt. Just blank. with no expectations. I think I felt odd because I don’t think I’ve ever been THIS without expectations before. I always expected something, but this time, I GENUINELY wasn’t expecting anything. I wasn’t sure if being like this was a good thing or not. Well… I guess I’ll find out
You prepare a table before me in the presence of my enemies. You anoint my head with oil; my cup overflows. – Psalm 23:5
Hmm.
Blank.
And ready to be filled by whatever God had in store for me.
