heed.

i promise, last one.

Janet Jang — Sun, 28 Mar 2010 20:49:10 +0000

janetjang.wordpress.com

see you there.

Art is…

Janet Jang — Tue, 23 Feb 2010 17:19:48 +0000

“… to clean your hands on your pants. To be a naughty boy. To scare the establishment. To be liked by the bourgeoisie 51 years later. To live everyday as Saturday. To find a blue sun. To find a totally new color called “Taota”. To create while you make love. To consider “being sworn to” as “pride” and to be attacked as “the proof of power” To think that you are the best while you feel insufficient. To dare. To push upon things. Not to become prisoner of one’s self. To document passing moments. To impress beautiful women and intelligent people. To caress and to slap the critics. Forever search for an exit in a labyrinth without one. To make a huge painting over the ocean. To walk over the ocean and leave marks. Not to hide your weapons for tomorrow. To be ready for big victories and big defeats. Not to let them get used to you. To fool the devil. To destroy reached goals. To live a Love Story after 102 years. To set the standards. To create gossip. To be hard headed. To be insolent. To create history. To knead history. To be the compulsory friend of Dinosaurs. To wipe out the racists. Not to leave “bills” on your back. To be “odd”. To use money as oxygen or toilet paper, according to the day. To watch thick ropes break from their thin ends. To get poisoned from paint. To overflow from inside the time to outside. To watch genetic evolution of your thought process. To feed the stomach. To dress a painting the way you undress a girl. Even when talking about the moment, to know that what maters is only “actions in space”. To decide not to go on vacation. To refuse reincarnation. To sign. To love one’s signature.”

- Bedri Baykam, June 1987. (Will still be valid in 2029)

What Makes Geniuses Stand Out

Janet Jang — Sat, 13 Feb 2010 21:20:39 +0000

“… pushing yourself to failure”

via What Makes Geniuses Stand Out.

chamomile tea.

Janet Jang — Wed, 03 Feb 2010 07:10:31 +0000

I must learn to sleep earlier. chamomile tea helps you sleep.

Deactivated facebook & signed off of gchat for a while.

Someone help me utilize my daytime…

unchanging but new.

Janet Jang — Mon, 18 Jan 2010 20:16:02 +0000

The first thing I see in the morning is the surface of my alarm clock and the word “snooze”. The second thing I see is the mobile of pretty paper birds flying above me. They remind me of a saying my dad would unashamedly repeat to me in his broken engrish: “Jah-net! de ully bud get de woom!”

“But this I call to mind, and therefore I have hope: The steadfast love of the Lord never ceases; his mercies never come to an end; they are new every morning; great is YOUR faithfulness. – Lamentations 3:21-23

Something that never ceases and never comes to an end is also completely new every morning. What a paradoxical yet utterly perfect concept.

truly, great is YOUR faithfulness.

preparatory thoughts. urbana 2009.

Janet Jang — Sun, 27 Dec 2009 16:14:46 +0000

“We love because He first loved us” – 1 John 4:19

I was sitting here at gate F3, trying to write this entry as fast as possible because I only had 28% of battery life left on my laptop. Usually I’m pretty quick at busting out a full entry because I already know what thoughts I want to “publish” (as well as what thoughts I don’t want to publish ). But this time, I was struggling because I didn’t know what I was feeling exactly. Was I excited? Was I apprehensive? Was I dreading to go? As awful as that sounded, even 30 minutes before my plane departed, I couldn’t figure it out.

Then a woman sat next to me and was creeping on my computer screen, haha. Then she asked, “Are you attending Urbana? Me too.” And then another girl at the other end of the row of seats exclaimed, “Urbana? Me too!” and then another in the row ahead of us, “I’m going to Urbana too.”

After talking with them for a little bit, I looked back to my blank WordPress screen and realized that’s exactly how I felt. Just blank. with no expectations. I think I felt odd because I don’t think I’ve ever been THIS without expectations before. I always expected something, but this time, I GENUINELY wasn’t expecting anything. I wasn’t sure if being like this was a good thing or not. Well… I guess I’ll find out

You prepare a table before me in the presence of my enemies. You anoint my head with oil; my cup overflows. – Psalm 23:5

Hmm.
Blank.
And ready to be filled by whatever God had in store for me.

glow in the dark boxers.

Janet Jang — Fri, 25 Dec 2009 11:28:33 +0000

I found some cute boxers at american eagle for my brother. It had christmas lights on them, but had these awkward spaces in between the printed patterns. Then I realized that there were glow-in-the-dark letters that said, “turn me on!” hahaha.

All yesterday, only one thought kept running through my head: I HATE THE HOLIDAYS. I’m not being grinchy (eh, maybe I am), but there’s something about Christmas and New Year’s that trigger something… volatile amongst family members. No? Is it just mine? haha. And after the unfortunate series of events on Christmas Eve, I gave up. I couldn’t see Christmas anymore. So I went to bed at 9pm and slept. I woke up 5am this morning to find this:

My brother decided to be Santa this year. I quickly wrapped my own presents, labeled them from santa, and left them in the pile as well. And then I saw a card taped to my door from my parents.

SIGH.

Because I couldn’t see the family spirit during the holidays, I thought it wasn’t there (and I legit thought it wasn’t!) But when we were left in the dark, the fights, the tears, the disappointments.. the spirit showed itself and it glowed.

Yea, it’s a cheesy analogy, but it made sense to me.

Merry Christmas, everybody.
Go give your family a hug

jersey snow storm :)

Janet Jang — Sat, 19 Dec 2009 11:42:57 +0000

yay!

I hope it snows this much.

winter break lists

Janet Jang — Thu, 17 Dec 2009 10:59:36 +0000

I slept for the past 14.5 hours in my big bed from noon to 2:30AM. My sleep schedule is COMPLETELY WACK, but the point is, I GOT SLEEP! I’ve never been so happy to be home The past two weeks have been crazy difficult and extremely weird, but in a really twisted way… kind of fun. However, I know I NEVER want to experience that kind of rush ever again, hahaha.

To-Eat List
- Wawa chicken sandwich, chili mac&cheese, and hazelnut coffee.
- Phileo, Sweet Ending, even Sprinkles frozen yogurt.
- Bonchon Chicken. I need to repeat that. BONCHON CHICKEN.
- Soprano’s mushroom pizza.
- Mommy’s 홍어찌계.
- The nasty pho place’s AMAZING spring rolls.
- My brother’s cook-whatever-is-left-in-the-fridge concoction.
- Animo Juice’s frozen bananas. wait, i think they’re CLOSED FOR WINTER!
- Amish Country ribs and lemonade.

To-Read List
NOTE: I don’t discriminate. Good books, clearance books, trashy books, stupid books, I’ll read it all if I like them. So don’t be disappointed when you see certain ones on this list.

- The Twilight books. I know, I know. I just want to see what the big deal is!

- Have a Little Faith by the wonderful Mitch Albom.

- The Magician’s Elephant by Kate Dicamillo. Said to be a children’s book that can make a grown man cry.

- The Piano Teacher by Janice Y.K. Lee. First bestselling novel by a Korean-American author that I’ve seen in a VERY, VERY, VERY long time.

- The Glass Castle: A Memoir by Jeannette Walls. Read some amazing reviews about the book and even more amazing things about the author herself.

- The Tao of Pooh by Benjamin Hoff. Writes about Taoism in the context of one of my favorite bears of all time. Sounds interesting

To-Do List
- TV show marathon with Suhwan.
- Make William stop bothering me and finally 노래방.
- Possible Koinonia reunion in NYC? I HOPE SO!
- Something with them jersey girls
- A date with mommy, a date with daddy.
- Get my hair did, haha.
- ooVoo with everybody!!!
- Free food and entertainment for a day, courtesy of Hong!
- Christmas shopping until my legs give out.
- Long overdue sleepover with Helen.
- Urbana 2009 in St. Louis.
- Family reunion, kind of nervous..

GAH! I’M SO GLAD BREAK IS HERE!

OVERDUE.

Janet Jang — Sun, 13 Dec 2009 20:38:59 +0000

I have like $20 in library fines for overdue books this semester. I also have blog posts that have been chillin’ in my head and are completely overdue on here :]

1. To be the best of the worst? or worst of the best?

2. Jesus and alcohol.

3. A review of my first and ONLY semester living alone on Southside.

4. My winter break to-do list/ to-read list / to-eat list.

5. Preparatory thoughts on Urbana 2009.

6. How much I think GPA actually matters.

7. How to knit mittens – and why i knit and felt and sew

8. Friendships: A necessity or an accessory?

Looking forward to some soulwrits this break